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Demons Inside MeThe demons
I thought I had conquered them
I thought they were gone for good
It was just a lie
I told myself over and over and over again
A lackluster hope
They were only hiding
In the shadows of my mind
Waiting for the right moment
To destroy me once again
Betrayal, so unexpected
Guilt, all my own
Doubt, drowning everything
These demons mock me
And tear me down daily
(Though I try so hard to hide it)
Eating away any happiness that may arise
I wallow in grief
I don’t know where to run
I don’t know if I can escape
Not without knowing where an exit lies
But I don’t want it!
I hate to distract
When others have their own demons to battle
What makes me so special
That I can have the right to demand
Other to look away from their own
And destroy my demons for me?
Am I so weak
That I cannot help myself?
Am I so selfish
That I think I can demand
Such a thing
Such a miracle
These demons fill my head
With whispers and hisses
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.3 P.3Shanti stood where Gamin had left her with her head hung low. Well yeah, she thought. Sacheirs may be traitors here, but they are a great people. And one might be able to change their reputation. She lifted her head and walked over to Gamin's bedroll, setting the book there. She then walked outside, only to see Gamin backing away from Shikomi. He looked scared, like a child seeing a beast for the first time. "Gamin?" Shikomi barked once and Gamin suddenly bolted away. "Gamin!" Shanti reached out her arm, as if she could pull him back, but he was already gone. Shikomi just about ran after him, but she stopped the wolf. "Wait!" Shikomi turned his head and looked at her. He looked confused which made Shanti even more so. "What happened?" she asked. Shikomi whined and she remembered that she couldn't understand his voice. She shook her head and suddenly the wolf was gone, running after his master. Shanti stood where she was, looking off after the wolf. "I need to find Celebri
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.3 P.2Serendrae walked behind Zadin, trying to keep up with him while still keeping her distance. They had been walking the entire day and her leg was giving her trouble, but she was afraid to ask for a break. Zadin stopped atop a hill and waited for her.
Finally, she thought when she reached him. The Oasmerian soldier was looking out to the distance. Serendrae came and stood by him and looked in the direction he was. A cluster of lights stood afar off, about another day of walking would be required to reach it. Tuloi, she thought. Looking around, Serendrae spotted Lake Tathar to the east and to the west laid the sea. Zadin left Serendra's side and sat on a large rock jutting out of the ground. Serendrae lowered herself down stiffly, grateful for the moment of rest. She winced as the new scabs on her leg cracked open under the bloodied bandages. Zadin watched, only the slightest of concern showing in his eyes, if any.
Serendrae arranged herself so that her leg could rest in a position that w
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.3 P.1Shanti laid the tray next to Gamin. "Here, I also went to the medic and got this for you, if you want it, that is." She handed him a bottle of medicine and stood up and went to sit next to Celebrine, who still wouldn't look at Gamin. 'What is wrong with him?' she wondered. 'Not that I'm upset over it,' she quickly assured herself. 'This probably gives us some delay before we go to Farlow.'
Gamin ignored the food Shanti had brought him. He didn't know what kind of effect it would have on his already upset stomach and personally didn't feel like sitting up again, in case he had another dizzy spell.
The Colonel reentered the tent and sat at the foot of Gamins bed. "Do you think you're up for the job tomorrow?" she asked. Tomorrow? Was he out that long? Gamin looked at the Colonel. "I should be fine," he lied. He looked up at the ceiling again and the Colonel got up and left once more. Gamin began to wand why General Ominnas had asked him what he had seen. Did something like that happen be
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.2 P.4~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Shanti leaned over Gamin as he began to stir. When he opened his eyes he winced as lantern light filled his vision.
"Are you alright?" Shanti pulled another thin blanket over him. "I'll go get you something to eat," she said before he could answer. She rushed out and shortly after Celebrine walked in, followed by Colonel Iomi and General Rae'yd. Celebrine went and sat on her own bed, not saying a word. The General came and stood by Gamin.
"What did you see?" he asked bluntly. Gamin stared at him blankly. See? How did the General know that he saw something? "W-what are you talking about?" he asked weakly. He was surprised at how hoarse his throat felt. He tried to sit up but was forced to lie down again when the room began spinning. Gamin laid his arm over his eyes, trying to block out the glaring light that hurt them. He didn't want to recall what had happened.
"What did you see?" General Rae'yd repeated. Gamin peered at him from under the shadow his
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.2 P.3The maneuver was harder than it seemed when watching it performed by more skilled combatants, but Gamin successfully flipped and landed on his feet, though the impact jarred his legs. He winced at the pain. The colonel had done the same maneuver but landed more gracefully than he did. A faint ringing started in his ears.
Shanti and Celebrine jumped down from the tree and landed on either side of Gamin.
As Celebrine watched the Colonel, she allowed her Ki to slip into its dormant state. She shivered as the process sent a chill down her spine. When the Ki was "asleep", a small ringing began buzzing in her ears.
"Let's take a break shall we?" the colonel suggested. "You all look exhausted, especially you Nakota, if you are going to perform such suicidal attack such as that one."
Gamin glared at the Colonel. Her scolding wasn't helping the headache caused by the high-pitched ringing in his ears. "We only just started, why should we stop?"
"Like I said, because you're too tired and obviousl
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.2 P.2~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
The cloudy sky overhead made the dim moon appear misty. All the same, the Fields were swathed in moonlight. Celebrine, Shanti, and Gamin came into the clearing and looked around. There were a few trees scattered throughout but other than that, the clearing was only long grass.
"Took you long enough to get here."
The three spun around at the voice behind them. Gamin's eyes grew wide at the sight of the Colonel and was about to get to his knees, but the colonel stopped him. "Keep you head Nakota I'm not the Commander "
She looked at the three before her, taking mental notes of each of them. 'This is an odd bunch,' she thought. 'They're only kids.'
Celebrine stared in bewilderment. "C-C-Colonel Iomi!" she gasped. "Were you waiting for us this entire time?!"
The colonel folded her arms. "Yes actually. I was given an order to train your team but you took forever to get here." She brushed back her tresses and stared at Celebrine. "What took you s
In Search of Sunrise- Ch.2 P.1Chapter Two
Gamin sighed, his white hair falling over his eyes as he looked down at the ground and examined a fallen leaf. He and Shanti had continued to the edge of the camp after Celebrine had left them.
"She's going to get us all killed someday," he mumbled. "She's taking forever with whatever she's doing." After another minute or two, his impatience got the better of him. "Let's go find her," he growled.
Gamin motioned for Shanti to follow. Shanti rolled her eyes and trotted up behind Gamin. She followed behind him through the camp for a while before they found Celebrine looking off into the woods. Gamin walked up to her with his hands clasped behind his head.
"What are you doing?" he asked, clearly annoyed. Celebrine jumped at the sound of his voice. "I come to find out whether or not you finally left, but here you are staring off into space." He lowered his arms, letting his left arm rest on the hilt of one of his swords.
"I-I just thought I heard something in the bushes t
You're at it again
Lost in the world
A glass, some ice
A bartender girl
What happens next
is what I do desire
Every Saturday night
To get in my car
And drive to the pub
Is that the right word?
Fake another scowl
Put in a cruel word
You'll need help going home
You're afraid to admit
So I take you myself
While you scream "Git!"
By the ride home you're asleep
Dead to the waking world
Lost in fantasy land
Childlike visions swirled
I ease your discomfort
With a pillow, removed clothes
Lay my jacket over top
Put a kiss on your nose
Your eyes flutter open
Stunning and green
I smile that charming smile
And wonder what you've seen
Your lips part in a question
Are you asking for more?
You lean up in desire
With the expression I adore
I can't help but comply
To your heartbreaking confession
You close your eyes and smile
Lust is your obsession
Soon I've given in, happily
Though I feel guilty, it's true
Were those words an invitation
Or have I used you?
I look up in such fear
I Am a Stuffed Animal Bunny
I am a stuffed animal
Sweet, lovable, cuddly and can keep you company
Silent, small, and shy, but still can make you happy
If you're down, I can cheer you up
Little children are my best friends
Thrown away into the closet is my fear
I raise my head and tilt it towards the skies.
Open my imagination and close my eyes.
Envision a place where I would rather be.
As far away from any judgmental eye that can see.
A place where all my dilemmas become obsolete.
Free from my troubles and the expanding concrete
Confinement that I am forced to exist in.
A place where it doesn't matter if you don't fit in.
A place where nothing but a smile is required.
Where I can think and write to my heart's desire.
A place free from any physical and mental disposition.
Free from the conflicting and persuasive power of religion.
A place where there are adjustable weather conditions.
Where there is no need to enforce any laws or restrictions.
A place where everyone can do exactly what they wanted.
Where everyone would feel appreciated, accepted and wanted.
A place where money is just an undefined and unwritten word.
Where it is promised no natural or manmade disaster will ever occur.
A place that even the man upstairs would speak high
Carlene was a blonde little girl
Who lived at the end of my block
And spent the most of her summer days
Watching the hands of the clock.
Every day at the strike of noon
She ran outside to her deck
To search for a sign of her Dad there
Coming home from his newest of treks.
But day after day her mother came
And carted the girl away
Whispering in the little girl's ear
"Not today Carly, not today."
But still the girl would watch at the door
For her Daddy to turn the corner
And everyday she prayed and prayed
For Daddy to return to his daughter.
Her mother hid behind the door
And spied on the sad little child
Waiting for a time to tell her the truth
That would destroy her curious smile.
So again the mother would go to the child
And kissed her little girl's palm
"Honey, today is still not the day,
Today your Daddy's still gone."
"But he's coming home soon, right?"
She would ask her mother.
"Right, honey, he's coming soon,"
She wouldn't say anything other.
The girl started school and days woul
The Dark kingdom named Derse.
The storm still rages on,
When will it cease to pour?
Thunders and Lightnings,
I gotta admit, can be a bit frightening!
The breeze is cold and the rain is harsh,
Perhaps this world will become a great, big marsh?
I'm getting tired... There's one thing left to do.
My little night light.
It's time to slumber, my dear.
To the place of darkened halls,
Where the voice of the HorrorTerrors call!
A bit horrifying than the tall towers of the Golden kingdom,
More isolated than the place of the shining buildings!
Everless, I still enjoy this place,
The Dark kingdom of grace.
I do believe this eye-popping paradise is named Derse;
A perfect name for a remarkable haven! Sweet and terse.
I shall await my next visit to this wonderland,
Once I fall alseep in this world so grand.
The Light kingdom named Prospit
Such a sunny day!
I think I'm gonna be blinded by the sun's rays!
The world is so beautiful,
Even the people are so pitiful!
Though today, I feel so faint,
I shouldn't give a complaint.
For I have long-waited to see,
The world full of golden towers!
The palace of sparkling yellow,
Crowded with people; Oh! So mellow!
More alluring than the disgusting asylum of the kingdom hidden in the shadows!
The clouds of the neighboring planet, such a sight!
Showing the future, so very bright,
Much better than the dark sky of the hideous hell that's full of blight!
Such a memorable experience!
Problem is, I have to bid farewell to this wonderful place.
Such a disgrace!
I shall see you soon, my sweet, gentle kingdom of Light.
House on Lewis LoopHouse on Lewis Loop
We didn't always live on Lewis Loop. Before we did, we lived on Sunset Blvd. and before that we lived on Madruga Road. We lived in many places before that as well. The house we live in currently isn't the best for my family. It's only a four bedroom house for a seven member family, not including my three dogs. Our house is a sky blue color with a connecting garage and two front doors. We have a deck out back and a large backyard beyond that with woods beyond that. Our Kitchen and dining room are connected as one room. Our Living room is beside the dining room section and leads to a hallway the kitchen leads to as well. The hallway passes a door that leads downstairs. That door is across from the kitchen. The rest of the hallway leads to my brothers room, my room that I share with my three sisters, a bathroom, and my parents room. Downstairs is were we keep the TV, the computer, and my moms stamping stuff. There's also the laundry room and another bathroom.
[transmissions of a dead girl]i am the
moon: i am
the silver pill
to weigh down
into leaden eyes--
i am the
of the dark.
the stars are
all dead in their
you'll be safe, dear,
as i am the moon,
with all of your
(i am good bye and yet,
you think only of romantic
i am the moon.
i am the crescent
and dead altogether,
i still die.
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